To My Mother
I saw your face in that room
Me, dirty with blood and mucus
You, exhausted and curious
I tried to tell you I wasn’t sure
I wanted to stay outside of you
but the words I had in my head
in my mouth they mixed badly
I had just learned that whole life
it would have been hypocrisy and paradox
I just made you suffer
I made you bleed
but it was me who cried and you who smiled at me
I saw your face in that room
as they took me away
There was too much confusion
to tell you how happy I was
to finally be able to give a face
to the womb that had hosted me
And later with my colleagues
we discussed reincarnation,
of eternal return, of the cycles of Vico
but I couldn’t wait to see you again
and get to know your man and your son
of which I could hear the muffled and distant voice.
I saw your face in that room
and I would give everything I have
to remember it.